Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

This is my dad. He died 16 years ago. He was a good man of few words. I wish I had him to talk to to give me advice.

I do miss him.

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.

This is my nephew's ball team at the World Series praying before their game. They did this on their own. I was so proud.

Patience

Patience is not something I am good at.

I hate waiting for anything. I hate waiting in line, I hate waiting at red light, I yell at the person i front of me if they stop while the light is still yellow.

I want instant answers to my questions. I would love to buy things on-line and get them tomorrow.


There have been several things lately that have taught me this lesson that I did not want to learn. I will tell you about two.

My bathroom is in the midst of repair. It needs tiled and a new sink and light fixture and flooring and stuff. This is something I have wanted for the last three years and I have waited and waited and waited. In January I found out that I was getting some unexpected money. (YAY!!!) So after some begging and pleading it was determined that the bathroom would be finished!!! We bought a new sink and fixtures and lights and everything!!! There is a particular person that I want to do the work. He is very talented. He is so talented that he has work a month out. I wanted my bathroom finished NOW!!! So I thought I could find someone else to do it. Hubby told me to wait. "Good things come to those who wait" he said. So I am waiting and I have a bathroom sink in my bedroom to prove it. But I know that when the work is done it will be worth it.

The second you might guess is children. This has been a prayer for twelve years. We knew that we wanted to be parents so we waited. We prayed and waited, knowing that we were called to e parents. We prayed and prayed and prayed. We started the process to become foster parents but we ran into a snag so now we are waiting again. Of course when I found out about the snag I threw a wall eyed hissy fit. Cried to every person who would listen, cried out to God. If I had been three I would have thrown my self down on the floor and kicked and screamed for three days. Then I did the obligatory moping and woe is me and life is no fair. And don't forget about the "Why me, am I such a bad person that this couldn't work out for me?" Tonight as I was talking to a friend about what to do to speed up the process my hubby looked and me and told me to do nothing, it was all in God's timing and He was taking care of it. Of course I looked at him and said "Sweetie you are so right. I can't believe that I ever doubted"...NOT I said "Who are you and what did you do with my husband"

He has been reminding me of God's timing a lot lately. So I have learned to be patient. Maybe not learned. I am learning to be patient. I still have a lot to learn tho.

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31 (King James Version)

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.

I am afraid of the dark. I always have a light on. Yes I sleep with a light on.

Day 27 - A picture of yourself & a family member

This is my niece. She has the same quirks that I have. She has the same quirks that hubby has. Sometimes I wonder if she is mine and no one told me.

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

My church, Glendale Baptist means a lot to me. We have been members for about a year and a half and we feel like we have been there our whole lives.

After we joined hubby told me it was the first time since we've been married that he felt like he belonged in church.

For example- Saturday night was our Wild Game Banquet and while I was serving a doctor and a farmer who are both members of the church were talking about hunting, fishing, etc. I told them if they were going to talk they needed to help serve so they did. No one is more important than anyone else, we are all important.

Day 25 - A picture of your day.

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.

I am fat. I want to be healthier. I want to be thin. I want to buy the clothes that are in the front of the store, not the one stuck in the back that cost an extra two dollars.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

As a Christian the Bible is my favorite book. To be honest I have never read it cover to cover. I know I should but I haven't. It has awesome stories. Who can beat David and Bathsheba or Samson and Delila? Right now in Bible Study we are studying Hosea and Gomer, what a way to for God to show His love for us. If you haven't read the book of Hosea you need to. Those are just the love stories. Lots of wonderful stories in the Bible.

Soooooo...When I first saw this days picture my thought was my favorite book is the one I am reading. I was going to take a picture of my e-reader because those are my favorite books.

The book I kept coming back to is Gone With the Wind . Yes I know that it is not a politically correct book these days but there is something about it. Scarlett and Rhett. It is filled with beautiful and tragic images. I could smell the smoke when Atlanta was burning. I also know exactly what Scarlett looked liked while it burned.

You need to read it. I may have to find my copy today and start reading it again. Maybe download it on the e-reader...ummm

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

This is our house. I wish I was better at taking care of it. I am not a good housekeeper nor am I a good handy person.

I would love to be able to keep the house clean and the laundry done and do the DIY things that need to be done without waiting on someone else to help.

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.

This is my high school. Wilbur D. Mills High School in Little Rock.

My high school years is what I wish I could forget.

They were rough. I had some very good friends (okay just one!) who were there for me but overall it sucked.

My mom moved had moved to Arizona the summer before I started 10th grade. I moved in with my dad and step-mom and step-brother and step- sister. I went from being the baby to the oldest. The last time I went to public school was in the first grade.

I had zero self-self esteem. I was awkward. I didn't know how to related to people. I was a nerd and didn't realize it.

I can go on and on but I won't. All I can say is thank the Lord that I lived through it and got past it.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

I want to go to Washington DC. It is on my bucket list. I want to see where the government is.

I love history, I love architecture. I love museums. It seems that Washington has all that.

I want to go and spend weeks looking and exploring. I want to see it all. I want to find the weird things that are off the beaten path and I want to see all the touristy things too.

Day 19 - A picture and a letter.

I have been confused about this day since I started this silly thing. Who do I write a letter to? What kind of picture?

So I decided to do a picture of a letter. LOL

It's the only thing that I could make sense of.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

I am my biggest insecurity- I always ask myself "Am I smart enough" "Can you do that" "Am I bright enough" "People would like you better if you lost weight" "You talk too much" "People don't like the way you talk"

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Friends. I have realized that I have some awesome friends lately who carry me and help me and encourage me and believe in me and ....

It is an awesome feeling that you can laugh and cry with someone in the same day. They really know all my bad stuff and love me anyway.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

How about three people who inspire me? This is my brother and two of his three kids.

They have suffered through a horrible tragedy seven years ago. Most people would have crawled in bed and never gotten out.

They have been able to live their lives with a bright outlook for the future. They live the verse about knowing Gods plan to give them a hope and a future.

The kids are excellent students, are very involved in church, outgoing with lots of friend. And they are good people who I enjoy being around.

My brother is very involved in all three of hid kids lives. He too is involved in church. He listens to his little sisters' whines all the time and makes her feel better every time she talks to him.

How do they inspire me? Not to let a tragedy define who you are. There is nothing that you can't overcome.

I don't have a cute title or quip. It's not that I'm in a bad mood but I am at a loss on how to start and if I do start I don't know when I will finish. I am full of words but I don't know how or in what order to write them down. Wow! None of that made sense.

I have had a rough couple, several weeks.

I have become more introspective I think.

I have a problem with self esteem, I need some. I have more than I use to but I could use a little more. This is something that Satan knows and he uses against me quit a lot. This is one o the reasons I am always watching TV or reading something all the time. When my mind is quiet Satan starts in on me. Lately its been about my worthiness to serve the Lord. Satan wants me to think that I am not worthy. I am reminded of Moses when he told the Lord he couldn't talk well enough to lead the Israelites out of Egypt. We know how that turned out. It's not about our worthiness it's about our willingness. God doesn't need those who are worthy, I mean really who is worthy to serve the Lord? God wants those who are willing.

What does he want us to be willing to do Whatever he is called to do. I was looking on a church website once and they did different ministries one Saturday a month. One of the things they did was clean bathrooms in gas stations. The first thing I thought was "I am NOT called to do that"
Am I too good to clean toilets? Is that beneath me? Am I called to only go to church camp? Or work with AWANA or youth? I must be willing to do whatever He calls me to do.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

I want to climb to the top of the Eiffel Tower. I want to do it with a person who has been there before and tell me all about it's history. It might be fair to say that I want to be kissed on the top but Steve is afraid of heights and I just don't see that happening.

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

These are five of my nine nieces and nephews. Sorry Brandon, Angie and RJ. (Facebook won't let me save other people's pictures anymore)

I love them. I love being an aunt. I have learned so much from them. They make me proud, they make me laugh, they make me cry. I try not to embarrass them but I know that doesn't always work. I would go the ends of the earth for them.

ALL of them not just the ones in this picture

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.

So I have two favorites. I do feel like I need to explain that I really don't have a type of music I like or a particular band that I like. I love those cds that have a bunch of people on them- that is why I love itunes because I can download a bunch of different things for whatever my mood is.

I do have more Celtic Thunder and Glee (is that really an artist?) songs more than anyone else on my ipod so they win my favorite artists lol.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.

I love my dogs- Oscar and Zoe. They love me even when I put clothes on them.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.

There are really two things that I hate. Bologna and beans. I'm talking beans and cornbread beans. I like baked beans and read beans and rice but beans blah might as well shoot me. Bologna I just don't like it.

It's like "Green Eggs and Ham"

Not in a box
Not with a fox
Not in a house
Not with a mouse
I would not eat them here or there.
I would not eat them anywhere.


And yes I know he ended up eating green eggs and ham and liking them but I have eaten and still don't like them.

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the craziest things with.

I don't know if we do crazy things but usually we laugh till we cry every time we get together. Maybe we are just crazy together.

Day 9 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

My hubby is my rock. He has stood beside me in all manner of things. He has listened to me cry and dried my tears, he has encouraged me. He has stood up for me. When I have a bad day my only desire is to come home and have his arms around me.

Day 8 - A picture that makes you laugh.

A last year at church we dressed as Shrek and Fiona for Halloween. Yep we painted ourselves green. It was awesome!

Day 7 - A picture of your most treasured item.

This is my grandmothers wedding ring. My grandparents were married almost 50 years when my grandfather died. I asked her for the ring when I was in high school and she gave it me then.

Day 6 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

I love books. I would love to be surrounded by books and pass on my love of reading.

Day 5 - A picture of your night.

These are the anchors from "World News Now" the ABC overnight news program. I have many sleepless nights and this is what I watch.

Day 4 - A picture of your favorite memory.

Cinnamon Toast (yumm)

My grandma would make me cinnamon toast when I was a child. She had a toaster that the drawer slid out and we would watch the toast and when it started bubbling we pulled it out. It made me feel so special.

Whenever I eat cinnamon toast now I think of her.

Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

NCIS is my favorite TV show. I have sat and watched it all day long. I think I have seen every episode.