Miserable in their Miserableness

Don't you know people like that? They are miserable and they want everyone around them to be miserable too.

There is someone like that in my life. They make life hard for everyone. When they call me and tell me they have problems, I offer solutions (I'm a fixer) but they think of reasons why the solutions won't work. I offer help but often it's not the kind of help they wanted. They just want to be miserable in their miserableness.

It wasn't too long ago that I poor pitied my self all the time. We were living in a very small rent house, I was hurtling toward forty and didn't have kids, still making barely above minimum wage, never got any breaks, oh woe is me. Some where in that time I took inventory of my life. I HAD a Lord that died for me. I HAD a roof over my head. I HAD a job. I HAD a husband. I HAD a car that started every morning. I didn't have it so bad. After a while it just took too much energy to be miserable all the time. I lost track of who I was suppose to be mad at, so I stopped keeping track.

I have learned that everything comes in the Lord's timing. We are living in a house that is ours (well in 30 years it will be ours.) I have a job that I LOVE, we are going to be foster parents, we will adopt one day. Life is good. Even when it's kinda meh I say it's all good.

The most important thing that I have learned is that when I am miserable I feel disconnected from everything, God, family, church..I was just going through the motions. I now feel more connected to God and church and family. When people get on my nerves I give them more of a chance, maybe they are having a bad day. I don't even yell at customer service people anymore.

Do you want to be alone in your miserableness or do you want to live life with others? (the second choice is really loads more fun!!!)

So what song should I add here? The Happy Song of course.

Today I am grateful for laughter

The Happy Song

Oh I could sing unending songs
Of how you saved my soul
Well I could dance a thousand miles
Because of your great love.

My heart is bursting Lord
To tell of all you've done
Of how you changed my life
And wiped away the past
I wanna shout it out
From every roof top sing
For now I know that God
Is for me not against me

Everybody's singing now Cos we're so happy
Everybody's dancing now Cos we're so happy
If only we could see your face
And see you smiling over us
And unseen angels celebrate
For joy is in this place!

Written by Martin Smith �1994 Curious? Music UK