I don't have a cute title or quip. It's not that I'm in a bad mood but I am at a loss on how to start and if I do start I don't know when I will finish. I am full of words but I don't know how or in what order to write them down. Wow! None of that made sense.

I have had a rough couple, several weeks.

I have become more introspective I think.

I have a problem with self esteem, I need some. I have more than I use to but I could use a little more. This is something that Satan knows and he uses against me quit a lot. This is one o the reasons I am always watching TV or reading something all the time. When my mind is quiet Satan starts in on me. Lately its been about my worthiness to serve the Lord. Satan wants me to think that I am not worthy. I am reminded of Moses when he told the Lord he couldn't talk well enough to lead the Israelites out of Egypt. We know how that turned out. It's not about our worthiness it's about our willingness. God doesn't need those who are worthy, I mean really who is worthy to serve the Lord? God wants those who are willing.

What does he want us to be willing to do Whatever he is called to do. I was looking on a church website once and they did different ministries one Saturday a month. One of the things they did was clean bathrooms in gas stations. The first thing I thought was "I am NOT called to do that"
Am I too good to clean toilets? Is that beneath me? Am I called to only go to church camp? Or work with AWANA or youth? I must be willing to do whatever He calls me to do.