The First Time

I think I may have tried this once, maybe, I'm not sure... So for now and for all purposes this is my first time..

My problem is that my husband works nights which means that I am alone way too much and I don't have anyone to talk to and work out the days details with..so now I'm here..

I've been thinking a lot about my life..I am the youngest of four kids. I love them and they have taught me may different things about life. They are 5,6, and 7 years older than me, they spoiled me when I was a child and am still trying to get over it :) I depend on my brothers for advice and help that a father would normally give, our dad passed away in 1994.

That's not really what I've been thinking about but it helps to have some back ground.

I have been presented with two amazing opportunities and I would be crazy not to follow up on them. Actually this is a we thing because it affects Hubby and me. My problem is trying to figure out if it's the right thing for me or if I want it so bad that I am manipulating things. I work off my emotions and I usually don't take a step back to see how it will affect others or what the long terms effects are going to be. (for example- we have two dogs and I wanted them really bad but the new wore off and it's like do I HAVE to walk them, do they HAVE to eat and yes we still have them) So I am trying to figure out if it feels good or if it's the right thing for me..

I feel better now....