What if...

I make no bones about it- I love my husband, he is my best friend, he holds my heart, all of it, without a doubt he was made for me.But....

Every now and then, like when he leaves the seat up and I find out in the middle of the night or when he puts his nasty mowing clothes in the same basket as my Sunday dress I start to wonder..what if...(Now every now and then we do play the "If you had married Sue she would have not complained about the seat being up" game)

What if I married that guy, he was going to be a lawyer, I would probably be a stay at home wife with two kids and playing tennis while they were at school. I would share my wealth by teaching underprivileged children how to play polo.. (Yeah I know lol) Of course I would be driving a tricked out Navigator on the way to the lake house where the party barge is docked..

If I married another guy, he was a gas station attendant, I would be living in a single wide with my dirt encrusted three kids and my guy. I would be working two different jobs to support the family while some women in a Navigator ask me if my kids want to play Polo...

What if, what if..

I don't think it's wrong to dream, to pray for things (Please Lord can't you make him put the seat down?) In Philippians Paul says that he has learned to be content in any situation. That is the secret of life, to be content.

We can't change the past. If I had married the lawyer or the gas station attendant I never would have met my man. Admittedly I have made some mistakes, things that I regret, things I would change but all of those things brought me here, today. I live with my best friend and every day I am told that I am loved and am the most beautiful woman in the world (I am going to have his eyes checked tho) who can beat that?

Do we live a no worry life? No..when the air conditioner went out and a week later the water heater had to be replaced we did a serious look at what was important and what we would have to go without in order to have cold air and hot water. He will continue to leave the seat up, but now it's in his bathroom now and I don't have to go in there and after mowing he puts his clothes directly in the washer, life is good.

Yeah it would be nice to have a bigger house with a pool but we would miss the closeness we have now. We want children but we have dogs...they are really close to kids, how awesome is it to have someone be excited every time you come home, even if you've only been gone 10 minutes.

My prayer for today is for God to teach me to be content in any situation. I can't change the past, I don't know what will happen in the future but today...today is when I can make a difference.